There Are No Rules: Enjoying Nature When Lululemon Doesn’t Carry Your Size

“Now I see the secret of making the best person, it is to grow in the open air and to eat and sleep with the earth.”

-Walt Whitman
Bullfrog Pond, Armstrong Redwoods, Guerneville, CA

We’ve seen those commercials, the woman running up to the top of a mountain, the sun stinging her eyes, sweat giving her a dewey angelic appearance. She stops at the top and unzips her hoodie and marvels at her accomplishment… “Nike… for women…”

Hi dudarinos,

I’m going to look you in the eyes right now. (See above).

Everyone can deny the restrictions and shame foisted upon them by the mass media, society, diet culture, social media, the fashion industry, literature, friends, family, teachers, doctors, coworkers, history, religions, pop culture, “art,” and everything else on the planet.

Deep breath… I know that was a mouthful.

One of the most important things to me is letting people know that camping is great, going outside is great, and everyone can do it. Everyone deserves the fresh open air.

(Yes I know there are people with allergies or certain medical conditions that need them to restrict sunlight, pollen, etc. Agoraphobia exists. Give me a break, I’m not an expert on the entire world. It’s a certain cadence or turn of phrase that is not literal. Back off, I’m trying to be nice).

Not only can everyone enjoy the outdoors, everyone SHOULD enjoy the outdoors. Because we deserve nice things. That being said, there are certain difficulties that arise for someone like me that don’t arise for others. Here we go!

Dressing the Part

I am not an Olympic athlete. For those of you who thought I was, please stop reading now. Sorry (not sorry).

Sometimes the hardest part of my day is simply getting dressed. With an anxiety disorder, when the weather changes, and it’s too cold and I don’t have any clothes that fit and are warm enough in this new season… I freak out. Or I’m too hot in everything I put on and feel like I can’t even breath in my own skin. Sweaty, sticky, and panicking.

When you’re like me (and the other 68% of women in the US), you cant just go to the store and buy something off the rack. You can’t just nip out drop $150 on new yoga pants with pockets because your friend Karen got you a gift certificate to Soul Cycle that expires next week. (Ranting…). When you live in bodies like ours, the things we want to do are often stunted by the options we have for clothing these bodies. “Do they have a life-vest that fits me? Do they carry my size of bridesmaid dress? Will my work be able to provide a uniform for me?”

In the outdoorsy industries like many others, “dressing the part” is a way of validating your participation.

Camping clothes, with all the specialized outdoor “gear” in the market, can be damn near terrifying. Have you ever been to REI or another sporting goods store to try and buy a “plus-size” rain jacket? It’s impossible. It’s a joke. Inclusivity in these brands is a myth. If we want rain jackets, we better settle for a cheap rain repelling one from Target or Amazon.

“Try looking for moisture-wicking, breathable fabric. Camping clothes should be versatile and designed to resist stains and tears”… – Said some idiot that thinks everything has to be categorized and classified for purpose and use, but it is really just to sell you more shit you don’t need and make you feel like a failure if you don’t have it.

Alright, on to the positive!

You can wear whatever the fuck you want.

There are no rules.

If it is about the brand of leggings you’re wearing, you’re doing it wrong.

Limekiln State Park, CA Coast. Hiking in a dress like a badass.

Just Do It

These ideas are important. If we as humans continue to let the strangers define what we can and can not do with our own bodies, we are willing participants in our own isolation.

Check out this summer 2019 article from Refinery 29. Even when one of the big cheeses of athletic wear started to embrace fat bodies, there was enough backlash to make anyone go back to bed and cover their head until it all goes away.

At the beginning of every hike I am filled with self doubt. I question my ability to make it because I don’t look like someone who would. And I am surprised every time! Not only do a complete the hike, I love every moment of it! Last time we did the Berry Creek Falls loop in Big Basin, I hadn’t hiked in months. I labeled myself a failure before we left the parking lot. After 11 miles I was an accomplished hiker. I was happy. I was proud. The next morning, the doubt returned. And that is just the way is is.

Over the years I have learned that my brain has been conditioned to lie to me, constantly. I can’t trust it. And if you have self doubt, you can’t trust your brain either. Sorry, friend, but thems the breaks.

So shut up and go outside. It’s nice. You deserve it.

Branden, Dante’s View, Death Valley National Park.

-XOXO Gossip Squirrel

Quit Your Day Job

Disclaimer: there is not a lot of travel/camping in this post. It’s my blog and I write what I want. Sassy.

Pacifica, CA

I love cliffs. I like the perspective they provide (see last post). However, I’ve always been a pretty cautious person. I don’t take a lot of chances for the fear of what might happen. Anxiety, ever heard of it? I’m in that club. We wear Letterman jackets.

My family has had a particularly difficult year with health and income and housing and mental health and deaths and to infinity and beyond. Work was also pretty bonkers and I couldn’t catch a break. It has been a bit much.

Enter stage left: Prozac.

I am not a doctor. I take pills because I’m OK with the idea of “better living through chemistry.” #myfavoritemeds #endhealthstigma #lizzoforpresident

This past year has been a big one for me. I’m doing things I’ve never been able to do before. Speaking up in meetings (you can’t shut me up now). Singing in front of people without beer. Wearing bathing suits. Discussing the way my brain works. Saying “no” to people. Refusing to let people walk all over me. Basically, I’m amazing. Hey, girl, hey. Tell your friends.

While this can’t all be attributed to Prozac, it has certainly helped.

All of this practice on a personal level lead me to quit my job.

Don’t get me wrong; I have a great job. I like the people I work with. I get paid OK-ish for a non-profit. I get promoted and fancy people ask my opinion. But I didn’t choose this career for myself. My anxiety chose it for me.

How is this possible?

Let me tell you! I’m a problem solver. Because of my brain, I can’t let problems remain unsolved. I’m always picking up other people’s slack and noticing what is needed because I can’t stand when things don’t go well. I’m not type-A, and I’m not a perfectionist, but for some reason I have to find efficiencies everywhere. I got promoted because I did a good job and have a good attitude. While I have dreams and goals for my department, it was a passive choice that brought to where I am today. I am making an active choice to leave.

I have always found time more valuable than money. I still need to make enough to pay my bills of course, I’m not delusional. (Or am I).

What do you want to be when you grow up?

How do people know? I don’t know if I ever will. But at least now I know what I don’t want to do.

-G

Places for Perspective

I just took a DNA test. Turns out, I’m 100% that beach… lover.

Lizzo fans out there?

At least I think I’m funny…

California’s pacific coast is the most important place on the planet. It is literally the edge of the earth. If we were a nation of Flat-Earthers, this would be where everyone sails off if they go too far. (That is probably a lie, I don’t know anything about what they think).

I live in San Francisco. Most of us who grew up in the bay area have watched our beautiful home transform into a place that is unattainable for the futures we always pictured. Tech has come in and taken over. The city is claustrophobic, noisy, and moves so fast you can’t tell what’s coming for you. The economic and sociopolitical casualties are piling up.

I live in a tiny apartment. Our truck (Elly May) has a rough time trying to find a place to bed down at night. I work too hard and I earn too little. Just like everyone else here who isn’t fortunate to work for some computery-conglomerate.

I have always resisted leaving the Bay Area for two reasons. First, my family is here. Second, I love the ocean.

Going to see the ocean “just because” was something I did with both my parents. Getting takeout and sitting in the front seat facing the waves was one of my favorite dinner outings as a child. Rain or shine, at least once a month we would pull right up to the edge of the cliff, where erosion had wiped out all the sand under the concrete. It was thrilling, sitting there, on the edge of the earth, listening to the coastal wind, and watching the waves crash over surfers and make birds bob up and down.

The ocean makes you feel small. It is where I go to get a little perspective.

Anyway, enough of this nostalgia.

Here are a few local places to visit that will make you feel content in your insignificance:

Harold’s Hill

Pacifica, CA

*SPOILER ALERT* If you have ever seen Harold and Maude, this is the cliff the car goes over. It is also a fantastic little hike up from the Pacifica Pier and levee. The hike is has some stairs, but there is also a less inclined trudging trail for those who enjoy trudging. Oh, and it is actually called Mori Point.

Mount Tam

Highway 1-ish on the way home from Stinson Beach

Most people know about Mount Tamalpias, but it is still very nice. The roads give you amazing views and places to get above the clouds. Lots of hiking and driving options.

Russian Ridge

Russian Ridge, Redwood City, CA

First of all, yes, this is inland. But you can see all the way to the coast, no hiking necessary. You look out over mostly uninhabited land, from Skyline Blvd. to the Pacific Ocean! That is so rare in coastal California. The parking lot is on Alpine Road about 5 minutes from Skyline.

Alamere Falls

Alamere Falls, Bolinas, CA

The pièce de résistance so this post is Alamere Falls. It can only be reached by a long hike around the steep and undulating coastline from the Palomarin Trailhead. Much of the walk is overlooking a steep cliff to the ocean, before heading back down towards sea level, past a lake and a pond, through a tree tunnel, and scrambling down a sandy cliffside. When doing so, please be sure to respect the delicate nature of the coast. Don’t forget to watch the tide!

The bottom line:

Just get outside and climb a hill and look at everything that is bigger than you.

Please forgive any spelling and grammar errors. I do not stand on ceremony.

-G

Hi, we’re Team TA.

Welcome to our campsite.

Goblin, the cat, is the most impressive member of our team. He camps, hikes, and snuggles like woah. He loves pizza and and speaking his mind. Above we see him watching over our campsite in the redwoods, and Elly May, our faithful steed. Elly May is a 2006 Toyota Tundra with a Four Wheel Camper Kestrel shell. She was a gift from my dad, when he decided he was giving up the road and staying at base camp for the rest of his days. Elly May has served us well, and here we will share all about why she is so wonderful.

Snoqualmie Falls , Washington, USA (duh)

I’m the short one, Ginger. I’ll probably be doing most of the talking. In this photo, the tall one, Branden, has said something inappropriate. This photo accurately depicts real life. Hence, why I’ll be handling the PR side of this blog. I use words and phrases like “PR” to make this sound grandiose. This is funny to me. Branden is not funny to me.

First printed family portrait, Victory Hall, San Francisco, CA.

Things to expect to find here:

  • Campground and campsite recommendations
  • Recaps of our trips
  • Maybe a little wine talk
  • Probably some music talk
  • Advice on camping with your cat
  • Op/Ed pieces about stuff I care about (bopo, lady stuff, anxiety and mental health)
  • Whatever else I damn well feel like adding
  • Possibly a link to my embarrassing highschool livejournal if I get up the courage
  • Spelling and grammar errors
  • Mistakes and accidents
  • Things that entertain me and make me laugh but no one else thinks is funny

Now that we’re all on the same page, please go away until I have something else to say. Thanks.

XOXO, Gossip Girl

JK that’s not funny. Well, no, yeah i think its funny. Bye.